whenever i get low on money i start thinking really irrationally like what if i hadn’t spent that $10 back in 2004 

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Until I started taking my antidepressants, though, I didn’t actually know that I was depressed. I thought the dark staticky corners were part of who I was. It was the same way I felt before I put on my first pair of glasses at age 14 and suddenly realized that trees weren’t green blobs but intricate filigrees of thousands of individual leaves; I hadn’t known, before, that I couldn’t see the leaves, because I didn’t realize that seeing leaves was a possibility at all. And it wasn’t until I started using tools to counterbalance my depression that I even realized there was depression there to need counterbalancing. I had no idea that not everyone felt the gravitational pull of nothingness, the ongoing, slow-as-molasses feeling of melting down into a lump of clay. I had no way of knowing that what I thought were just my ingrained bad habits — not being able to deposit checks on time, not replying to totally pleasant emails for long enough that friendships were ruined, having silent meltdowns over getting dressed in the morning, even not going to the bathroom despite really, really, really having to pee — weren’t actually my habits at all. They were the habits of depression, which whoa, holy shit, it turns out I had a raging case of.

Not Everyone Feels This Way — The Archipelago — Medium (via brutereason)

I wish that more people would acknowledge that… this is a real thing.

But so is everyone telling you that you have a chemical imbalance when really you’re miserable because you’re being mistreated.

So is having depression that gets *worse* with therapy and medication.

And so is being read as depressed when you have really bad executive dysfunction for another reason.

And I feel like… most people either pretend that neurological depression doesn’t exist, or pretend that the other things don’t exist and that anyone who doesn’t think they’re depressed must just lack the insight that comes from being properly medicated.

And it’s really frustrating. I wish I knew how to make it better. Both misconceptions hurt a lot of people.

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Also I think pure neurological depression is much rarer than people make it out to be, and yet it’s the version that gets the most attention as to what “real” depression is supposed to be like.  Depression rates are known to vary based on a lot of situation and cultural factors, for instance, and yet we’re supposed to believe that all depression is a simple ‘chemical imbalance’ and that taking meds is ‘just like diabetes and insulin’.  Mind you, meds can work even on situational depression sometimes, but they don’t always, not by a longshot, and in many cases they do no better than placebo overall.  

But again, nobody’s supposed to talk about that.  All mental illness is supposed to be purely neurological or biochemical in origin.  And for some reason the SJ community has picked up this particular bias and run with it.  I remember it starting to solidify back with certain disability rights bloggers, and wondering how it was a disability rights stance to completely deny the experiences and questions of a large portion of the ex-patient community, in favor of basically the line favored by the psychiatric establishment.  And to say it’s ableist to do otherwise, at that.  That really confused me when I first started seeing it happening, and it confuses me to this day.

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Mohammad Reza Domiri Ganjis Mosque ceiling in Iran

  • The Dome of the Seyyed Mosque in Isfahan Iran
  • The Nasīr Al Mulk Mosque, or Pink Mosque in Shiraz
  • The Ceiling of the Fifth Floor of Ali Qapu in Isfahan
  • The Imam Mosque in Isfahan
  • The Ceiling of the Fifth Floor of Ali Qapu in Isfahan
  • The Vakil Mosque in Shiraz
  • The Nasīr Al Mulk Mosque, or Pink Mosque in Shiraz
  • The Jame Mosque of Yazd
  • Chehel Sotoun
  • The Vakil Bathhouse in Shiraz

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When MLK said “I they will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character" he was saying that ‘I hope one day that i can walk down the street without being stereotyped and killed’

Why would he be talking about white people.

In what world would be trying to fight for “white rights” or for white people to be treated ‘equally’ when they already had a majority of the power, what fucking sense does that make.

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IQ doesn’t matter. Treating everyone as capable of learning matters.

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The unexplained death of a Kamloops First Nation woman has led to another call for a public inquiry into missing and murdered aboriginal women.

On June 1, ATV riders found a skull in a remote area near Campbell Lake and White Lake, approximately 20 kilometres southeast of Kamloops, B.C. A further search of the area uncovered more skeletal remains from the same person. That person was identified last week as 25-year-old Samantha Paul, who was reported missing in September 2013.

The RCMP haven’t confirmed foul play in her death, but her family and community are convinced she was murdered. This week, Paul’s family and local chiefs held an emotional press conference at the Kamloops Indian Band office, calling for an inquiry into her death.

Tk’emlups Indian Band Chief Shane Gottfriedson, appearing visibly shaken, said he believes Paul was killed and that women and girls in the community are not safe. ”Our community is small and it is heart-wrenching and appalling to know that a killer walks amongst us free today,” he said. ”It is very difficult for her family and our people to accept.” The chief said it is tragic that, in the end, Paul’s life has been reduced to a number."It is my understanding that the homicide rate for indigenous woman in Canada is seven times higher than for non-indigenous women," he said. "Samantha Paul is another woman who is now only a statistic."

Grand Chief Stewart Phillip, President of the Union of B.C. Indian Chiefs, said the government must take action and hold an inquiry looking into not only Paul’s fate, but also the larger question of why so many aboriginal women are going missing and turning up murdered in Canada. ”It’s a national tragedy but, more importantly, it’s a national disgrace,” he said. “We are absolutely outraged that the Harper government refuses to agree to a national inquiry.”

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From Elon James White Tuesday night.

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One of the most sinister things about normalized racism is you don’t have to have bad intentions to be racist, you just have to remain ignorant.